Without You I'm Nothing

Happy holidays everyone!! May our last days of 2015 be filled with love and happiness, not greed! Unfortunately i cannot see my family this year, but i think -despite that i miss them so much, and skype is great but not the same- it's not a big sacrifice. Because i can be with the one who is the most important for me, who is my family. So, i couldn't be happier right now!
We just spending our first christmas together and i enjoy every moment of it, this is my best year ever!! (I love you so much and i hope that after reading this you come to me, eheheh)
Of course, i dedicate this blogpost to my one and only again. We met now almost one year ago and Jack wanted a post inspired by our first one so much, he couldnt wait until the actual date :D
I cannot beleive that this much time passed and my life totally changed in less then a year. At this time a year ago i was in a quite dark state, i was confused, hopeless and was feeling used. In february, a sparkle came in my life. Back then i couldn't have imagined that we will get so far together in such a short time. I always felt somehow that he is special (even before we first talked) but i could have never thought that i will go crazy for someone ever. Only after 3 months of knowing him i decided i want to live my whole life with him and i left everything behind. And i don't regret for a second!
Finally i found warmth, peace, adoration in my heart. I'm finally at home.

I love you.

Monsters Among Us

I dedicate this post again to the subject of our rotten, consumer society where people forgot that life is about loving others and using objects, not the other way. Buy stuff you think you really need (or wish for) because you cannot get out of this machine unless you chose to run away and build a hobo life creating everything for your own self. But don't let material consume you.

Silver and Cold

Hey there, it's been a long time! I'm ready for winter! Not that it means anything good, since every year i die a little at this time. I'm even more afraid now that being here on the cold North, i told Jack give me a blanket and wake me up in march... Whatever, i will try to hold on but if can't, i'm sure my baby will be here to warm me up :)
It's very busy times with creating and i feel a bit out of the order with blogging so will be very rare nowadays. I will try to keep up with making posts about my creations (that was the original purpose of this blog but laziness always wins in the end!)
Jack made a very cute velvet top for this cold season, check it out! It comes in default layer, TMP and Omega appliers! 8 beautiful colors! HERE
Also, if you want this amazing hands tattoo and cool boots check out the new Sanarae round! Hurry because many stuff are limited there -like this tattoo- will not be sold after the event!

Touch Me

Hey it's been a long time! I've been through a very busy month (months?) i didn't have time to blog at all. Was on a hype for creating but was enough for a while, im on a break until december now! So i can concentrate more on real life and my Jack, and blogging when i feel like it...
This dress im wearing is made by my love for Gen-Neutral, go check it out, you surely wont regret! I'm so proud of him learning so fast and leveling up with every new creation. (I remember well when you made that simple little bindi, dear, like if it was yesterday :D It was about 3 months ago) For me it took more than a year to just even understand the world of 3D so he's way better than me already. Can't wait to see all his ideas come alive.
Okay enough about Jack now, i would like to say many thanks to Konkei who was very kind to rezz me this building - I was searching for something like this everywhere but i knew i could use only his creation. -Thanks for your help!- He makes amazing modern buildings and whole cities, check his store HERE.
I also have to mention this bag i found, i love it! It's something different and edgy just how i like it... and its just 50 so dont hesitate to buy it if you going for an unique look! Find it here.
 

In The Air Tonight

This post will not be about SL so just scroll to the pictures if you not interested. What is happening now in our world worries me. And it's getting worse quicker and quicker year by year. When I was a child i couldn't think about anything else bad then the end of the world in 2012 -i was reading Mayan prophecies when i was 7 so actually i grew up with the thought we all gonna die from a planet and thats all- maybe the world really ended 3 years ago and what is happening now is worse than dying. Some people sit on our head and rule the world with hatred and money and always pick an area for themselves to destroy and "save". Doing it turning us against each other, blindfolding us not to know who our real enemy is... A few years ago i couldn't think it can happen anywhere in the "good democratic world". This May, when i left Hungary, i couldn't think it will happen very soon in my mother-country however i knew for long time that those fuckers who sitting in the parliament selling out our home to other more wealthy fuckers who doesn't know any other god but money. My nation is dying. And so is yours just you cannot see the signs yet. It would be time to forget about skin color, place of birth, religion and stick together to go against the real evil, that 1% who wants all this shit happen what happening now. Because not these dictators will ruin our world with their actions but we cos we let them do their shit. It's time to forget about "somebody else will protect me" or "save me", that's a lie, that will be a fake saviour. Only you can save yourself. Majority of the civilized, comfortable people doesn't know that or don't want to accept and that's why we are in deep shit. We've been told being looked after and being 'protected' which is not quite right yet. Believe me when it will happen you will wish it never did.
I've been quite down in the past few days because all this shit is getting to be real. They say not to worry about things that didn't happen yet but why is it better to stick my head in the ground instead of thinking about change? It's worse. My country is getting to be full of immigrants who been tricked by these people who sent them there as a puppet and soon they will realize it too and go against everybody. I'm worried about my home, my family, my friends. I hate humankind and often think i don't want to live on this planet anymore but then i have to keep going and distract myself cos i dont know anything anymore. The lines between good and bad been blurred. Brainwashed people convince the others of their right. I don't know in which group i'm in. Think about it for a second and you realize you don't know either. Thank you for reading this far. If you didn't yet, please start to think about defending yourself because noone else will if you don't.
Now i get back to distract myself and ask Jack to watch a cartoon maybe so i can get in the dreamworld for a while before falling back in the cruel reality.

Fall Over

So, I'm busy having RL fun and working a lot nowadays and also have to take care about a sick baby but there is some time when it comes to blog an outfit I like. Yeah I love the movie Edward Scissorhand but don't ask me how the idea came now, these always just pop up with coincidences (I just got this new hair from kokolores and this amazing shirt from Seul -at MOM, check out!- do I need to say more? :D) I loved making this photoshoot, as I love contrast in general (of which this film has a lot!), I tried to catch that feeling and i think I kinda succeed so this photoshoot was so fun! (Not to mention the excitement of trespassing in someone's house the minute after they leave, not knowing if they come back or not, so have to be quick 8D - sorry not sorry i fell in love with that window)

Ps. For my Kim, Jack <3

News

I always forget to post my creations even though I started my blog to show them somewhere... So the other week I made this photo shoot with 2 ladies, I made many items for it. I just released the latest yesterday: It's a ribbon that forces your avatar's arm behind, there are 2 levels for the arms pose and this is my first item I made with a HUD (other than Slink huds, which is ready made, basically) so im very proud of it. Also I got deeper in scripting to make my idea real with the 2 types of arms pose. I thank for a very nice gentleman for helping me with this script and figuring out how to do even.

There are 2 versions of color HUD, as shown above

Also i made this dirty body, which is also compatible with TMP body and head too, however if you have TMP head you have to deal with a bit less dirt on the face due to the mapping. The face also comes with 2 eyeshadow options and without.

Also, despite of i didn't make it but my love, Jack, just under my store name, let me introduce to you these gorgeus bruises and wounds. Yeah the boy is crazy. Of course, its also compatible with TMP head and default avatar and comes in 3 different shades each. You can buy the eye and nose part separately.

You can find everything on MP

Or check out our new store which we have together for my brand and Jack's new brand BOYS TO THE BONE

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Dead Star

Hi! Nowadays im forced to make more posts so here is the next one (Ok i was lying, i just love to see my love's face when he is happy about a new idea i made so im trying to be a busy bee 8D)
No thoughts i want to share now so just let me just praise this awesome goggles by Nefarious Inventions, this is the most amazing i ever seen in SL!! I'm not gonna take it off anymore. You can find it at the IDK event. Now i dont write more becouse im tired, see you :D

Blue

Wasn't in the best mood yesterday i don't know why, so when else would be the time to be cheesy? I like to cheer myself up by doing stupid things. I promised my dear that i will make post with this sweater if he buys for me so... Here it is, i hope you like 8D Also thank you Silky for the bag, this idiot song and all the concept wouldnt come to my mind wihout it.

Ps.: Actually, this is the most hated song of my childhood. This version is awesome tho!

Second Lives

Wow its been almost 3 months i blogged the last time... The past few months were quite chaotic, many good and bad, no surprise this was the least thing in my mind :) Now it might really sound like i always make excuses not to blog, this time i had a very good one at least! So, after many years finally i arrived to a big change in my life, a very good change... I met this guy, Jack a while ago who i instantly fell in love with... Wow, now i just realized that its almost a month ago that i decided to leave everything behind to be with him - yes, its true, sometimes neither i can beleive and when i lay down next to him at night i wonder if im dreaming... Leaving my family and friends in Hungary wasnt easy at all but i must say totally worth it, finally im at home. Many asked me if im crazy or what? Might be, but i don't think any would have made it different if was in my situation... You love somebody and you are sure you want to live your life with them, how courageous you have to be to just get on the path and make your dream come true? I can just say, if you desire for something, something you are certain about, if you have the chance, don't hesitate, just go for it before the oppurtinity slips out of your hands... Moreover in this world nowadays, everything seems calm and nice but we can never know if the next day we wake up that shit the fan, so... Enjoy your life and make the most out of it as long as you can.

Disposable Teens

I think i can relate to the title, being so lazy and slow all the time... But i had a very busy and nice month, i couldnt care less about blogging :D However, i made these pics weeks ago, just... Editing sometimes...
Okay now, let me introduce to you a shop called beggars. by jack, from where i wear many items, i can say i love everything he makes and bought stuff waaaay before i got to be a blogger for him (am i what?? woooot!!) Check out all his awesome stuff at:

https://marketplace.secondlife.com/stores/164498

 

Now that i got kicked out from every blogger group i was once in, (not like i care) he is now my only sponsor but not a secret, he is also my everything and more (i hope you won't kick me out, dear :D)
I've been making this post for ages and finally can be done with it today, and what happens? He was inspired by MM today too, not even knowing about the other's plan, it's truly magical 8D <3
Now i stop bragging about him, becouse i will have plenty of time for that in the next X years... :)
Other thing: I just started a tumblr too, i think i will continue this one too, to write my idiot thoughts, but yeah, i look forward to that too, hope it wont be as lonely as blogger. Find it here: http://ttzk.tumblr.com/
And please follow me so i can follow you back!! See you! :)

Godlookin

I was listening to his song (and another, but thats a secret shh) all day long while working on this pic... Listen too :D By the way, its a hungarian band which just got to be my new favourite today...
Hungarian mainstream music is a huge crap. But i guess its the same everywhere... Well, its not one of the mainstream. I liked some hungarian bands before but always good to find new ones :D
Oh and thanks Jack for being my model, this post would be so dull without you! ;D
Check out his blog, its pure awesomeness: http://jacquesvalentine.tumblr.com/

The Boy Who Ran Away

Been through an interesting week, finally i decided to quit my job and told my boss go fuck himself for everything he didn't. Lately i wanted to throw up even about the thought of going in the "office"...
So, im back in the market, hope i can find a good part-time job soon, im not too worried tho.
One of my best friend's had her birthday just the day when i quitted so it was double celebrate. We went ice-skating which was one of my biggest fears (pathetic i know :D). I decided i will face and defeat them all, this one check, only my knees arent happy about it :D (I shouldnt go there drunk)
Finally i also started to make many things, you might see the result soon.
There s so much ahead, now i dont want to tell more, so bye!

Melodies & Desires

We have lots of books at home. I remember, as a child i often stuck my head in my parents' bookcase, looking for something interesting (oh, they had, moreover, in the back row, hidden from us!!!) ... My dad was always into arts, we had so many books about the subject from antiques to Picasso. There was one which always caught my interest, i loved to look at its pictures. It was a lookbook about Renoir's work. I always was amazed how he could paint such detailed and beautiful shadows and light, painting almost every leaf's reflection in the scene. He taught me also that shadows arent black or grey, they always have a tone depending on the enviroment. If you didnt know that, now you do. You wont be surprised he came in my mind after making these pics, those fields and all!! I love his colorful and detailed work with meadows and im happy i could create something what reminds me to it... So looking forward to spring!

I fink u freeky and I like you a lot

"To my sexy boys, and my fancy boys,

And my playboys, and my bad boys,

And my pretty boys, and my ugly boys,

And my naughty boys,

We gonna have a nice time kids"

Ok, girls welcome too, this could be a nice valentine's postcard for y'all. Welcome!
I hopped on that creative wagon again to make another unoriginal piece sometimes i feel i have to. Yes you can see i was very inspired by Die Antwoord's album cover called Ten$ion, which if you dont know yet really should listen it will be an interesting experience.
Started with a crown i wanted to blog, now the pic has everything but that crown, next time maybe... I dont know why i headed to the male yo-landi instead but i think i like the result so far, took sooo much time... When i imagine something i can get so far that i make the things for myself that i cant find or too lazy to find, sometimes its easier... So if you want a pic with the same pose or the exact bloody heart, just give me a shout!

Sharper

Was in a creative mood yesterday again, so i just built this 'something' was so much fun that in the end this backdrop evolved into 3 spaceships shooting at each other - ofc in my own fucked up way. I can't show those now becouse i couldnt make the last pics but by the end of this post you can see a picture of one 'spaceship' at least 8D
Now im feeling very bad physichally so dont have many things to tell. Go check out the items here. Especially the shop where my hair and tank (vest?) are from cos thats amazing! I never been there before and dont even know how i found... I might not be so advanced at shopping tho, but if this shop is something new for you too, than im happy :D
See ya!

Click for credits and awesome photo of spaceship :D

Run Far

'Haha! Zip it, zip it, zip it
God damn this wicked jungle'

Just a quick post since its so late :D
Title is from a song from my newest artist called Elliphant, check out her songs, awesome! I just found out 2 days ago that i want to go to her concert even if its in a neighbour country and bit far, will worth it im sure... Moreover that we will spend the 'night' stuffed in the car like i used to do with my bros when visiting one of them in UK and got into some mischief... I think we gonna die again, so look forward to it.

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Revive

Hi,

happy new year and all! Yeah been on a hiatus for a while, didnt feel like blogging lately... Also, got a new work which i might leave soon, woot! :D Whatever, life is a constant line of changes all the time, this is something we all have to deal with. I always find it scary but when happens im also surprised how easily i can get used to changes and barriers so we will see - i have some plans for this year i ll have to do, there are so many i wouldnt tell now.
Lately i feel like balancing on two edges, always inspired and careless, cheer and stoic...and extermely restless. Maybe it s becouse of my life or becouse of what i do to myself lately. Whatever. This year will be for creating my art, maybe this post is a good start however i will focus a lot on RL work becouse i just got a new challenge - i got a tattoo machine from my bro for christmas which i would never think of but i definately love it! Had the thought before to become a tattoo artist just didnt know back than... how to start? Like this, i guess, so i will design many tattoos these days, i had a plan of making tattoos for my av anyway...
Gbye 2014, let that 2015 begin!

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